How Imposter Syndrome is Good for You
There were over 30 students in the zoom room as I introduced myself to the hour long session. I had given lectures and taught psychology classes before, so there should be no reason why my Imposter Syndrome feeling was so strong.
My tech had failed me so I had no notes going into this session but I continued, working really hard to remember my notes, going through the slides and “faking” it while the undercurrent feeling of failure stuck with me. If you asked me if my Imposter Syndrome was working for me — I most certainly would’ve said absolutely not.
As I went from slide to slide, I grew in confidence. Until I switched back to the students. Looking for their input, to see their reactions to what I was presenting, and again, my imposter syndrome and lack of confidence came rushing back. I ploughed on and finished the session with a short Q&A in which only one question was asked. Ugh… my mind raced with statements such as “they don’t care at all about what I said”, “I’m not a good trainer — maybe I was too fast, slow, or forthright”, “Well, I guess I should just get out and revisit my presentation”.
A week later, the head teacher wrote to me to say what a success the presentation had been and forwarded me all the positive and very constructive feedback from the students. I was a success! Oh, thank God.
